Life isn’t about
finding yourself. Life is about creating yourself. There once was a time in my life I had no
ambition, middle school, I had no thought of what people thought of me or what
I looked like, I basically had no real shame.
All I did was stay home, plant myself in my bed and lock my mind in a
video game with no thoughts of anything except get more Pokémon. In school I
snuck my video games into class and played whenever the teacher wasn’t looking.
At the same time strangers tried be my friend and my family attempted to
converse with me, but I blew it all off. Soon I became alone and video games
became my reality and purpose.
Then
one day my games were taken away from me, and I had no idea what to do. In
order to earn it back my parents told me I had to become a more social family
oriented person. At first I disregarded it and instead stayed in my room all
day and night to watch TV. I thought, I’ll be who I want. By the start of 8th
grade I found myself with friends, but it wasn’t the kind who were good
company. With these friends I had gotten into 3 fights in my first semester, I
had been label as a stoner and my grades were between 0 and 30 percent. Also at
first my parent were pleased I made friends but after they found out who my
friends were, they were easily unhappy. So they banned me from my newly found
friends. Then I was back at square one, I had to make new friends, raise my
grades, and still please my parents.
I
had one semester left until I was moving schools, I was moving to a whole new
district with all new people, all new surroundings, and an a brand new start. I
half looked forward and half didn’t, I didn’t want to go because I had a
girlfriend but I wanted to go because I had a bad record. But this was my
chance to recreate myself as a whole. I could become a whole new person, I
didn’t have to be known as a stoner or an ex-loner. Also I noticed something; I
didn’t need games anymore, I wasn’t even worrying about them. I was thinking of
changing because I wanted to change, not because I would get my games back. But
before I was going to leave to my new school
I wanted to at least try and end my middle school years on a good note.
I went in every break, lunch and after school hours to see my teachers for help
and assistance, also while I was in class getting help I met some new people. I
was able to end the year with solid B’s and C’s, not the perfect grades but
better that F’s.
I
didn’t need to wait for puberty in order to mature, all it took was a little
effort, all I had to do was push myself. With a little effort I was able to
make friends with nice cool people who were the right crowd, also I was able
better my grades. Sitting in my room doing nothing caused opportunities to
waste away, I could’ve of been with friends, or volunteering, or doing chores,
or at least doing something selfless. With that push I was able to create a
good name for myself and hold a better head on my sholder.
Throughout
life we will go through many events which alter our personality and who we are
as a whole. These changes aren’t us trying to discover who we are its us taking
it into our own hands and creating who we want to be. If I stayed a hermit and
didn’t try to better who I was I would have never been able to get acceptable
grades, surround myself with a good crowd and have good relations with my
family. Instead I would have no friends, be stupid, and always be under punishment.
“Life isn’t about finding yourself. Life is about creating yourself.” -George
Bernard Shaw.
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